'Isolation'

This piece of work is my final piece of my degree, and will be shown for my degree show. It is called Isolation, and is also based around ideas of claustrophobia. I have chosen to look at fears in a lot of my projects because they are things that have caused me to worry a lot in my past and is something that I often struggle with now, but not as half as bad as I used to. I guess now I dont see the point, but I have enjoyed looking back at my past for my photography. This piece of work is a small model room that I made out of foam board and tracing paper, the chair is a small doll house chair I painted white.

'The Forgotten Walk'

This piece of work called 'The Forgotten Walk' was from my first project in my third year, it is again about when I was bullied but this work was looking at the psychological effect it had on me. Every night during the school term I would have nightmares and sleep walk because of the stress and worry, so I decided to document this by photographing the places I slept walked. The photos are blurry because I wanted to show the sense of me seeing where I am going but not using my vision properly because obviously I am still asleep.

'The Fearful Journey'

Finally managed to get my work on here, which in a way is quite scary for me. I dont know why but I get really shy when people want to see my photography course work because I dont think they will get it! ha ha ha! well here it is.........

This is my last project I did in my second year called 'The Fearful Journey', it was about when I was younger a got bullied, and the worst time for me through the bullying was when I would walk home and the bullies would often shout out me. I decided to re-shoot the roads I walked down and underneath put my thoughts as I walked. The work was 6 photos put up on the wall like posters. Anyhoo hope you understand this!

Prayer and Patience

I have been thinking recently quite a lot about how God has been working in me and changing me me over these past few years. When I think of the person I was a few years ago compared to the person I am today there is quite a big change. I used to be a very self-conscious person, it would get me really down and very paranoid about a lot of things, like what people are thinking and saying about me and also paranoid about how I acted. God has changed that over these past few years, don't get me wrong I am not saying that I am completely comfortable with who I am, because I still struggle with things but not at all like I used to. I am a lot more confident now, I understand that I have silly ways of speaking sometimes and silly things I often do but I dont get paranoid about them because whats the point in that, I laugh at them now which I would have never been able to do a few years back. I would have been embarrassed and beat myself up about them but God has changed my way of thinking which I am so thankful for.

I remember a few years back asking God all the time to help me to stop thinking the way I was, because I didn't want to feel sorry for myself anymore and I wanted to be less uptight and then I would get really upset because these feelings never changed but it is only now have I seen how much he has answered my prayers. I love God he is so amazing!

One major thing I have learnt is prayer and patience! I am such an impatient person but God has taught me over these past few years that I have to be more patient, he has taught me to understand that he has a time plan for everything. God listens to us and he also knows us inside out he knows what we need and when we need it and will bless us with what is best for us.

anyway I think I have gone on enough now.

Bye allxxx