Photography and Me!!!!!

So......I've been thinking a lot about my photography future lately! i've always thought about it but more in the sense of what my next project is gonna be on, (oh and who's photo board is next on the list, crocker i will get to it i promise) but I guess now because my degree is coming to an end I have started to think about it more in the sense of what the heck am I gonna do with my degree. Also there is a huge! part of me that is thinking am I actually good enough to make a career out of it! On some occasions I find myself tense up when people ask me to help them with photography things because I get scared that I am going to do something wrong.

I remember a year ago someone asked me to play a VERY small role in taking photos for a wedding and they asked a bunch of people not just me and I got so scared that my photos would be the only ones to muck up or be rubbish that i made some lame excuse to get out of doing it! Things like this just make me wonder how my future in photography is ever gonna happen, and it scares me. I guess I have started to realise is that I care a lot more about photography and suceeding in it than i thought i did, Photography has really been the only thing that I have managed to pass at! he he he! I was never the brightest person at school and when I got into uni i was seriously suprised! I guess these feelings of being scared to take photos for others is the fear of maybe failing and the one thing i have always passed at! but thats not the way I should be thinking! because if I dont take a step out and photograph for others I will never get a chance to pass at it! and I will never be able to call myself a photographer. I guess its just gonna take time for me to grasp the confidence! small baby steps I say!

Anyhoo thats my thoughts for the day! best go to bed!
night allXXX

Whats Next???

So my week has been very full, which is so good as for the past few weeks my days have been pretty empty and I have been very lazy. Went on a road trip to Gt Yarmouth with my housemates this weekend just gone and it was so much fun! very tired at the end but was a nice break from southampton. God definatly blessed me with fab housemates this year. Got back and have finally got excited about my final major project and have started to really work on this project. (will talk about what its about in another post)

When we got back from yarmouth I was reminded of how fast this year is going! its only 4 weeks till easter and then after that I only have 8 weeks left of uni! wow! I am so excited about the months to come especially September. For all those who are reading this and dont know what I am doing in Sept, I am doing Impact! This is where you give a year to work for the church! I am going to work for my home town church in worthing, as I feel like this is my family and I want to help them. I have wanted to do this since I started uni! so I am pretty excited about the fact that it is so close now, what has made it more exciting is the fact that a few weeks ago I found out that my good friend Jeni is going to be doing Impact in worthing to! which has really relaxed me about the year as I will be doing it with someone I know well and I am really comfortable around I really think that we will work well together and we will learn lots from each other! and who knows its still early days there might be someone else which is exciting! guess we will just have to wait and see.

There is also more.......not only will I be working with Jeni but living with her to and also living with our lovely friend debbie! its so exciting. I cant wait to live with christian ladies as I have never lived in an enviroment like that before, I am so excited to learn more than what I already have from them, there faith, wisdom and love of God! I thank God so much for he has really blessed me, its amazing how he works, I thank him for last year! as I have learnt so much from it and now I cant wait for what he has to teach me next.

Bye for now I guessXXX

My Rock!!!

In this post i think i just wanna talk about something that has been so important to me for the past 7 years! this is my faith in God! He has taught me so much and quite frankly i dunno wot i would have done without him in my life! When i look back at how my life has been and how i got through things that i got through i honestly believe the way i acted and delt with things would have been completely different if i didn't have him in my life. I guess especially through uni he has proven to be my rock! Not only this but has blessed me with so many things and left me with so many promises. One thing I have learnt from uni about my faith is that is so easy to praise God in the good times when all is going so well but when things are going wrong we often find it hard to thank him! but what i have learnt is that praising him in the bad has given me strength and hope!

This weekend has taught me that God will bless us for trusting in him at all times and he will make our paths straight! when i was in my second year i didn't exactly have the best time, but by putting my faith in God he got me through it and gave me strength! And i praise God that he has got me through it.

I cant wait for the things he has planned for me in the next months! (which i will disscuss in another post)!

Thats all for now i guessXXX

'I Get By With A Little Help From My Friends'

Well from the title you can kinda guess what this post is gonna be about, I remeber when I was about 7 I never had any friends, I know I know how sad! but for me at that time that was all I ever hoped for, some kind and true friends, and now 13 yrs on I can honestly say I have an abundance of them. Over these past few years I have become more and more thankful for these people in my life. I guess when I got to uni the people I met were so completely different to me and finding people that had the same views as me and the same things in common as me was very hard, dont get me wrong I have met some amazing people at uni and I will always have them in my life, but I guess uni made me apprieciate the friends from home more and more. And without sounding anymore cheesier than I already am I guess what I wanna say is thank you to those people! you all know who you are! thanks for being there for me, and putting up with me this post is for youXXXX

My First Blog!

Well I guess I will start this blog by explaining why I am doing one! A couple of weeks back the realization of coming to the end of my degree hit me. The idea that in 15 weeks time I will not only have completed my degree but also completed my education altogether. For me this is a very exciting yet quite a scary prospect, I have been in education for 16 years of my life and that's all I really know! so finishing this degree to me kinda means that I am now officially an adult how scary is that!? so from this realization I guess I want to express what uni has taught me, and also to look at where my life is heading after my education life finishes.